Sad

I've taken the past week or so completely off. I haven't followed the plan at all.

And I'm just plain sad. Yesterday I emailed an old friend of mine. We've known each other about 10 years now, and it was the kind of thing where I liked him the moment he walked into Biology and sat behind me. He never liked me back, of course, but I loooooooved him. We were great friends during college. We sang a duet at his brother's wedding, then when he got married (to a girl 10 years his junior), she sang the song with him. I was "over" him at that point, and we hadn't seen in other in a couple of years by the time he got married. His wedding really upset me, though. I guess they've been married about six years now. Maybe five. Anyway, he emailed me back just now and I literally cried when I read it. I know we would have killed each other if we ever got together, but it's like I still feel that way about him. I don't think I've ever felt that much for someone. *sigh* Anyway, he gave me his number and told me to call him so we could get together. Here's part of his email (I used to call him ole boy, and he'd call me ole girl):
I wish you could see the smile on my face right now. Very good to hear from you.
Give me a call and we’ll get together. Love ya, ole girl

Oh great, now a coworker is emailing me about her new boyfriend. Everybody but me, it seems. I just want to buy a house and can't do it on my single income. I need (and want) to be married. Not sure if it's in the cards for me at this point. :( Wah. Whine, whine.