Yeah, whatever, I'm still fat.
And nobody reads this really, so I'm going to write here.
Moved home. It wasn't as bad a move as I thought it was going to be, but DAMN I have a lot of shit. How does one person GET so much STUFF? My storage unit is full but still has some space. I haven't unpacked everything yet. My computer is still in the box. I just haven't had any down time at all lately. I've been going, going, going. Filled up with gas Saturday and needed to fill up again last night. Sucks, but it will all be worth it, right? I'll have my debt paid off (mostly) in 3 months, and I'll be on my way to owning my own home.
Ok. So, my cell phone? Has rung ONCE since I've moved. Ok, three times, but the two times Tim called don't count. He must be single again or something. Why else would he be calling?
I really am kind of out of it where my friends are concerned. I don't necessarily feel left out of anything, I just feel like I don't know exactly how I belong....how to fit in...so I have just been flying under the radar and waiting. Not sure what I'm waiting for, but I'm just waiting.
I have this friend who thinks he's my best friend, but he spends more time making me feel bad about myself, or making me infuriated at him for the stupid/disgusting shit he does than actually doing friendly things...he constantly hurts my feelings, which I can get over, but the friendship literally makes me tired. So I just let him know that he can hurt my feelings all he wants, but I'm sick of him making me feel bad about myself...and I've stopped talking to him. We didn't talk much lately anyway because he's very busy being selfish, so I didn't need to adjust to him not being "around." I will have to see him a couple of times this year...July and Sept. It'll be fine when I have to be around him...I won't cause a scene...I'm so not a scene causer and there's no scene to cause. I'm just over it all, really. I can be friendly to him, but I don't have to be his friend. And this is awful to say, but in a lot of ways, I'm so much better than him. Like...he doesn't deserve to be friends with me.
I'm worried that I won't be able to save as much money as I'd like. I only got to save $150 so far this month (one paycheck), and I want to pay off my Visa with my second check of the month. I'm just afraid dad will say "How much did you save this month" and I'll only have $200 saved. We'll see. Things should change in June because I won't have left over bills to pay from the apt. But for May, I had lots of stuff to take care of, so not so much savings going on.
It'll all be fine, I'm sure. Now. Back to work!
Moved home. It wasn't as bad a move as I thought it was going to be, but DAMN I have a lot of shit. How does one person GET so much STUFF? My storage unit is full but still has some space. I haven't unpacked everything yet. My computer is still in the box. I just haven't had any down time at all lately. I've been going, going, going. Filled up with gas Saturday and needed to fill up again last night. Sucks, but it will all be worth it, right? I'll have my debt paid off (mostly) in 3 months, and I'll be on my way to owning my own home.
Ok. So, my cell phone? Has rung ONCE since I've moved. Ok, three times, but the two times Tim called don't count. He must be single again or something. Why else would he be calling?
I really am kind of out of it where my friends are concerned. I don't necessarily feel left out of anything, I just feel like I don't know exactly how I belong....how to fit in...so I have just been flying under the radar and waiting. Not sure what I'm waiting for, but I'm just waiting.
I have this friend who thinks he's my best friend, but he spends more time making me feel bad about myself, or making me infuriated at him for the stupid/disgusting shit he does than actually doing friendly things...he constantly hurts my feelings, which I can get over, but the friendship literally makes me tired. So I just let him know that he can hurt my feelings all he wants, but I'm sick of him making me feel bad about myself...and I've stopped talking to him. We didn't talk much lately anyway because he's very busy being selfish, so I didn't need to adjust to him not being "around." I will have to see him a couple of times this year...July and Sept. It'll be fine when I have to be around him...I won't cause a scene...I'm so not a scene causer and there's no scene to cause. I'm just over it all, really. I can be friendly to him, but I don't have to be his friend. And this is awful to say, but in a lot of ways, I'm so much better than him. Like...he doesn't deserve to be friends with me.
I'm worried that I won't be able to save as much money as I'd like. I only got to save $150 so far this month (one paycheck), and I want to pay off my Visa with my second check of the month. I'm just afraid dad will say "How much did you save this month" and I'll only have $200 saved. We'll see. Things should change in June because I won't have left over bills to pay from the apt. But for May, I had lots of stuff to take care of, so not so much savings going on.
It'll all be fine, I'm sure. Now. Back to work!
posted by Hungry Fat Girl @ 12:44 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:15 PM,
Anonymous said…
Actually I read this blog more than you think. I love you and I tried to call you yesterday afternoon. So I'm accounted for! I'll try again tonite. That "guy" is just insecure. He probably makes you feel like crap so he'll feel better. I hate people like that. He's not much a friend to me anymore either. I talked to him on the phone last night, but only to confirm he was going to be a groomsman. Other than that, he doesn't talk to me much. But I still love you and that's all that counts. And in July and September, I'll be there and we will PARTY! Because after the rehearsal dinner it will be time to PARTY! I guess I could've just made this an email....what a long comment!
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